GFM
I wanted to post this last week, but honestly, I forgot I wrote it. One would think that being at home would allow for plenty of things, but it doesn't. I get tired very easily, but I can't sleep. I try to do the best I can. I had a very busy week with doctors and other appointments, so I am always proud to get that done. These are things, as many of you know, I was able to do before the assault. I didn't go to doctor's appointments almost every day, but I got many things done, even working full-time.
The above photos are of my clean little kitchen and my clean little bedroom. This took me around 3 hours, while taking breaks to rest for a moment because I can't walk very well. I was very happy to get this done...It is something I took for granted before - simply cleaning my home.
The last photo is my little "self-care" photo. What I have learned through therapy is we have to truly take care of ourselves, too. A warm bath, making a cozy bed (which my #1 Warrior and I make jokes about), taking a moment to wash your face, put on your favorite comfortable clothes. These are things I took for granted. I took for granted that it was safe for me to walk early in the evening back to my car. I took for granted that I had a steady income with insurance, which I don't have now.
The above photos are of my clean little kitchen and my clean little bedroom. This took me around 3 hours, while taking breaks to rest for a moment because I can't walk very well. I was very happy to get this done...It is something I took for granted before - simply cleaning my home.
The last photo is my little "self-care" photo. What I have learned through therapy is we have to truly take care of ourselves, too. A warm bath, making a cozy bed (which my #1 Warrior and I make jokes about), taking a moment to wash your face, put on your favorite comfortable clothes. These are things I took for granted. I took for granted that it was safe for me to walk early in the evening back to my car. I took for granted that I had a steady income with insurance, which I don't have now.
It is a frustrating thing. Reaching the limits of any uncomfortable/hard circumstance is incredibly difficult. I feel a bit lonely, but really, I don't like being around people at this point. I have reached out to some of you about having tea/etc. which I look forward to. If I have reached out to you, it is because I feel safe with you. I don't feel safe with many people.
I am thankful for the things that you all have provided. I hope I can provide some comfort, in some way, by explaining what has happened to me over the last year.
I have numerous resources that I can provide to anyone who needs help. I still need help, but I have done a lot of research and accumulated phone numbers that have helped me.
My love to all of you. Stay aware. Stay thoughtful of others needs when they are asking for help.
I am thankful for the things that you all have provided. I hope I can provide some comfort, in some way, by explaining what has happened to me over the last year.
I have numerous resources that I can provide to anyone who needs help. I still need help, but I have done a lot of research and accumulated phone numbers that have helped me.
My love to all of you. Stay aware. Stay thoughtful of others needs when they are asking for help.
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