The thing that did make me laugh today was that I had my head shaved. Well, as shaved as it could be with the glue. Part of feeling liberated...all the gross hair that couldn't be washed. I know a lot of people don't wash their hair regularly and that's fine, but when you can't--absolutely can't--well, you start to miss it.
So head is shaved. Feeling great about it because it's warm out (even if I can't go out) and I finally feel "clean", even if for the moment. But guess what? Because I couldn't wash my hair, I have "cradle cap", If you have a baby or have had a baby, you know what this is. If you haven't had a baby, it's basically just a ton of dried up gross skin in your scalp. You can google for more details to gross you out.
But it did make me laugh. Broken ribs. Broken nose. Throwing up a lot. Stupid brace on my ribs. Talking to people about how stoked I am that I can eat cucumbers, sometimes crackers, keep a bit of water down.
I am frustrated and impatient. Because I can't move around the way I want to/because of the assault, my body hurts. All over. And currently, there is nothing I can do. I have to "heal" but I want that to hurry up. But it can't. And I'm trying to process that.
I wanted to update for all of those who have reached out. This post is actually late (this appointment was on Tuesday). I wanted to wait until I could actually write with a clear mind, well, as clear as it can be.
One of my best friends calls me a "warrior". I don't feel that way right now. I feel like I am crumbling, afraid, constantly in panic, even when I "know" things are secure. But nothing feels secure right now (including my head...it's just put together with glue).
The fear I have is very real. I also realize how many people around the world are also being hurt/assaulted/abused/killed/hurt. And it pains me. There are so many terrible things going on and there is nothing I can do to help right now.
Thank you so much for all of your help.
Please remember...
Be Fucking Nice to People.
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I am frustrated and impatient. Because I can't move around the way I want to/because of the assault, my body hurts. All over. And currently, there is nothing I can do. I have to "heal" but I want that to hurry up. But it can't. And I'm trying to process that.
I wanted to update for all of those who have reached out. This post is actually late (this appointment was on Tuesday). I wanted to wait until I could actually write with a clear mind, well, as clear as it can be.
One of my best friends calls me a "warrior". I don't feel that way right now. I feel like I am crumbling, afraid, constantly in panic, even when I "know" things are secure. But nothing feels secure right now (including my head...it's just put together with glue).
The fear I have is very real. I also realize how many people around the world are also being hurt/assaulted/abused/killed/hurt. And it pains me. There are so many terrible things going on and there is nothing I can do to help right now.
Thank you so much for all of your help.
Please remember...
Be Fucking Nice to People.
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